The Bible Study
Every other Monday evening I attend a really great Bible study at Generations Church. Before we go into our time of study, we fellowship, worship and pray. Two weeks ago, I remember asking for prayer for deliverance. I didn’t know specifically what I needed deliverance from, but I knew I needed it. Ironically (it’s just like God to do this) part of our Bible study that evening involved deliverance. At the study, we went through an exercise where we each wrote down our sins on a sheet of paper and then brought them before a large wooden cross laying on the floor. There, we were to literally hammer the paper of our sins to the cross. It was a very emotional and moving experience. To recognize that our sins have been nailed to the cross.
This past Thursday night before going to bed, I knelt on the floor beside my bed and started praying. As I prayed, an old friend came to mind, so I decided to pray for him. While in prayer for my friend, I felt a large burden of guilt and resentment about some of the things I wish I would have said to my friend before our relationship came to an abrupt end. The self-blame I was feeling about this was so heavy on my heart that I cried as I prayed. I had Godly sorrow for those things left unsaid and I felt deep remorse. Several times before I had repented, but I guess I had never hammered God’s forgiveness from this into my own head.
I knew I needed release and deliverance from those thoughts. I knew God didn’t want me to continue to live in that unresolved guilt and unforgiveness. I felt like the enemy wanted to keep weighing me down with those thoughts and things I could no longer change. In recognizing of this, I cried out, “Come out of me Satan, in the Name of Jesus!” and immediately, that burden of blame and guilt was lifted off of me. I stopped crying and went into praise from the deliverance. Then, a few minutes later, I started crying again. But this time, it was in thanks to God for the release. It was as if the Holy Spirit had surfaced these thoughts so that I could receive the deliverance and know that I no longer needed to dwell on that.
The Continuing Spirit
What continues to amaze me is that these past few days, I’ve continued to feel deliverance from other weights and burdens. It really brings new life to the scripture: let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes (Ephesians 4:23). What’s also interesting to me is that just a few nights earlier, I had woken up in the middle of the night with a scripture in my head. I rubbed my eyes, opened my Bible and looked up the scripture. Mark 8:33 … “Get behind Me, Satan; for you are not setting your mind on God’s interests, but man’s.”
These past few days after deliverance have been amazing as I continue to walk in more of the freedom that the Lord has for me! All praise, honor and glory I give to my God in Heaven, the healer of our hearts, minds and bodies!!! The God who delivers us from evil! I love You too Lord, and thank You for reigning in my life!!